since sixth grade, one of my biggest struggles has been trusting people... i am starting to wonder if i will ever get over it. i mean, almost all of my closest friends have let me down. (with the exception of ally, my household sisters, my marian crew, and a few select guys) why should these new friends from texas be any different? i am so sick of people hurting me and walking all over me, and i am sick of believing that people care about me just to find out that they really don't. i almost want to stop contact with them, just to keep myself from being hurt by them. i don't want to find out that all the love i thought they had for me wasn't real. i know i can't stop talking to them just because i am scared, but it scares me that i want to because that shows how hurting i am.
i wish garrett knew how badly he hurt me. jerk.
i really need prayers.